Wont Go Home Without You

Day 60

2012-02-02T21:26:00.000-08:00

Day 60 2.2.12

was a bit pissed off initially the way i was treated by one of them. i felt i shoudn;t deserved this sort of treatment. anyhow that's in the past. 2 days back, my bro took me to a night club somewhere in kl. i just dont understand why ppl love to go to such place to spend money and with the chick. one of the chick was actually quite high on drugs.

ppl just like to come to this kind of place to show their might in their spending power. anyhow , it was quite a good experience to have further when i dont have to pay a single cent and i think is paid by my brother. Should have waste this kind of money.

then day before, i catch up with wilson. we had a good catch up session. was advise that TNT is paying my salary therefore i should forget the past and move on and dont put every of my hope in SAP just in case. I think i say thank him for the matter.

yesterday dinner with the gang. went quite well and pass to them ang paos. not much but a symbol of good luck for everyone and later we proceed for 2nd round drinking session.

Day 57

2012-01-29T19:00:00.000-08:00

Day 57 30th Jan 2012

it has been a while since i blog it down all the daily activities.

Chinese new year for this year just flew past even without me noticing. didnt spend much time in ipoh just 4 days enjoying the companion of everyone. ethan is quite notty and nadia is so cute but have fallen ill lately. must be someone la.. just facetime with them yesterday nite and omg, nadia slim down so much and little rascal kena whacked by his mother and grandfather for puching nadia. i think the parents should have the bigger responsibility to teach ethan.

Day 46

2012-01-19T01:29:00.000-08:00

Day 46 19.1.12

what a hectic day started with appt in kl and rush back to pick them up to their respective destination and ended up with appt with callie to the wrong customer site.

it seems that they are not very strong in every aspect perhaps again i need to revaluate the company rather than the people in the organization. i do share some difference with callie between dhl and tnt and hope she will take it positively.

tomorrow is the tender closure for MAS and what the ? the quality of work is simple just to awesome to define. how could i possiblely submit this kind of quality of work ? basic tender requirements was not even stated in the tender and what the hell i need to submit it for ?

nvm, is close to cny soon and tomolo i will be back to ipoh to celebrate with the rest

Day 43

2012-01-16T19:25:00.000-08:00

Day 43 16.1.12

hmm..6 days to chinese new year and this wednesday, my nephew and niece will be back and i will be picking them up. nice!

today early morning meeting up with the rest of the colleague on coming wednesday presentation to MD on pipeline. The way i look at it and the level of my colleague i believe no where near me and is only zakki and kelvin woo stands between me.

I believe if i to take extra initiative in my current work and i will make it. Nevertheless, for the past few meeting up with customer, those are really not up to my level and hopefully i can take it positively and to upgrade myself.

Day 42

2012-01-15T19:26:00.000-08:00

Day 42 15.1.12

Since 10 days ago i have blog of my daily happenings.

few days back , we went groceries shopping with the gang for the orphanage. quite a bit of fun where we bought nearly of MYR 7K for 2 house. Well, took it quite some time to unload all those stuff.

and is just a week away from chinese new year and the mood and the feeling to cny is not as last time where we cant wait for cny to come. Maybe this is because we grow older.

Day 33

2012-01-06T07:32:00.000-08:00

Day 33 6/1/12

It is very real the dream. I think it is her that again appear in my dream. Too bad it was just a dream. I don't know why I keep dreaming of her. Is she dreaming of me as well. Even if she is , I don't think I will get to know the answer.

Had lunch with kam seng. I just don't understand why ppl took it so seriously that iMac econ the orange. I don't care less. Anyhow , I do felt bad when to leave a such good paying job. Anyhow, is it the past no point dwelling on it anymore.

Anyway left early and and back to home.

Day 30

2012-01-03T21:10:00.000-08:00

Day 30 3rd Jan 2012

Back to work after new year. Will have to start visiting customer very soon.
Came in to office early and make sure that the flower is delivered to her. Did check with them to make sure that it was indeed without the sender name. even if is without, i am sure she will know is from me. on whether she going to throw it down the dustbin, i am pretty sure she will unless she can tell me that she's loving it!. dream on boy

had a good dinner with the gang follow up with some drinks with them. ended the night around 10 and proceed home. as usual, they would't leave so early and i cant join them go crazy together.

Day 29

2012-01-02T19:59:00.000-08:00

Day 29 2/1/12

is the second day of a brand new year 2012. spend the day chilaxing at home and waiting for a good day to start again.

me and wife start to bake shiffon cake for tea time and this time the result not too bad to liking.

However , the main highlight of the day is that i dont feel good when i saw her name in facebook . i don't know why and i dont want to know at all. Anyhow, i promised her not to cross into her life again therefore i mysteriously again send her the flower without letting her know who actually send it again. i bet she wilkl know is from me this time again.

i think i dreamt bout her again this morning i am not really sure was it her that i dreamt of again.

tomorrow start to work again for new year 2012. time to make some good $$$ .

think big and make it big

Day 26

2011-12-29T22:51:00.000-08:00

Day 26 30/12/11

Today is the last 2 days of the year and i do felt nothing was archieved yet but did managed to get some pay increased and job changing .

i think i dreamt of mbb last night . it was so clear in the dream and in fact that she is giving me a chance to make amend. is like why i treat her so nice and i have to go thru an interview to win her back. funny dont u think so. is always like this.

I am just waiting to go off from work and no one seem to be interetsted to have dinner with me tonight . sad case.

Day 23

2011-12-27T18:53:00.000-08:00

Day 23 27/12/11

Today seems to be a boring day and i made myself to bukit jelutong for so called OJT. nothing much and spend my day sitting in the warehouse doing my own stuff. met up with SP for lunch and again spend the day OJT with respective stakeholders

Suppose to join SP and JFC for happy hr but i have promised ex boss to meet up. quite boring in fact spending my time talking as like i initiated all the topics and nevermind, he spent me dinner and drink.

As i say, need to lower down my expectation and to learn and stay put for the time being till the very next chance comes by. Seriously need to keep reminding my self ready when the next chance come by.

Day 20

2011-12-24T20:01:00.000-08:00

Day 20 24/12/11

Is Christmas eve today and woke up after a night drinking with them last night. Today we collected our wedding picture and did some groceries shopping. We did up some decorating to the cheese cake my wife prepare for father's birthday. A simple cake and should taste good.

Made a reservation at fukuya for dinner and nothing special about the restaurant.even if there's nothing special is quite a good session for bonding with my parents.

We enjoyed the cheese cake made by my wife .

tell u what, i sneaked out from house to join them for a drink at neverland. hahaha.

Day 18

2011-12-22T05:12:00.000-08:00

Day 18 22/12/11

Skip previous few days without blogging. Nothing special happened apart from yesterday, got off from work early.

I was thinking to get Christmas card for mbb. Ended up at bangsar village. Initially thought to get a bear for her but worried I wouldn't reach her. So got her a card n a pressie for my wife.

Wasn't that surprise , my first Christmas card for mbb. Strangely , I thought wasn't destine to send the card to her place as I couldn't start my car but eventually managed to drop it at here place. Plead with the guard to give it to her mail box va the postman. Well, I do think she will now is from me., if she got hold it. But it still got into my mind that she will throw it away if she got it. Nvm. At least she see it.

Total is winter solstice day n normal day.

Hope for a better day tomolo.

Day 15

2011-12-19T21:20:00.001-08:00

Day 15 19/12/11

Another week of training. Knew most of the stuff but still have to go thru the training. Nothing special to write for today.

Day 14

2011-12-18T01:42:00.000-08:00

Day 14 18/12/11

What a lovely Sunday. Since i have left DHL, it seems that my weekend is shorter as compared during my time as i couldn't care less when is holiday and weekend or even working day.

we went over to publika to try out the foodcourt with all the well known food. did not expect much but not too bad as i run out of idea where to have rather than going back to those few places for food.

after food, did some light window shopping around publika. as usual, shopping for wife and i took the opportunity to have a good hair cut.

nevertheless, spend my lazy sunday sleeping and it seems to waste of time but i couldn't care less and dinner with parents in law.

very normal sunday as compare to previous attachement. less stressfull and still kinf of upset over my moved to ibm. should have get better mentor to guide me . i think i wouldnt have last longer that expected. nvm life still goes on.

trying to sleep but just couldn't sleep. lots of ideas going to the brain and at last felt asleep after like 1 hr at least rolling in the bed. anyhow, let's see what's await for next day. good night.

Day 13

2011-12-17T07:46:00.000-08:00

Day 13 17/12/11

Got up early today while wife bz preparing for lunch and dinner. Went back to sleep and wake up around 11am and finished up cooking lunch. Went back to normal routine. Went shopping at pavilion while waiting for m14 to start. Wasn't that good as expected but still ok for a movie. Continue shopping again and I continue dreaming to get the jackpot. Hahah. Waiting for tomorrow slot again to try my luck again.

Pretty normal day but felt a bit unhappy after movie. Just a feeling and I wonder why. Nvm. Live life happy.

Goodnight.

Day 12

2011-12-16T00:22:00.000-08:00

Day 12 16/12/11

arrived office again and on the job training . this time round with commercial team / IT. the current nsm is pretty pasionate about their job and company which is good for a person but she went pretty aggresive the moment she's knows i am from dhle. a good thing a least for the company. therefore, nothing against her but sometimes it does good to be humble .

lunch with colleagues nearby and nothing much continue with cs OJT but incomparable perhaps with the knowledge i have . hahaha tought man i am . got all the information i wanted for my masterplan again. hahahaha.

looking forward to leave office after 4 days sitting in office.

Got home from office. Wife cook nice dinner waiting for me. Finished all her dishes and she cleaned all the dishes for me. Hahaha. I'm tired mah. Suppose to go out with kam seng for drink but eventually went out for a drink and supper. Nothing much.

Day 11

2011-12-15T13:15:00.000-08:00

Day 11 15/12/11

Arrived today earlier to office. went thru some details with colleagues on the job role and function of their department. basically i have known all the function and is good to run thru it again as it is different i would say compare to the previous ones. nevertheless. quite good.

I got my employee tag and i do realise i wasnt too proud to wear it at this moment. U have to think simple to be simple so therefore, dont complaint much and live with it.

had lunch with lunch mates. good seasion too. found kelvin woo to be quite talkative but he did make the crowd wake up with his humour or so. i find him a nice chap.

quite a boring day . went thru with credit controller and to be honest, is way behind my ex company standard as he dont even understand DSO for the country telling me something else instead. nvm , he is new. maybe my standard perception is much higher. have to learn to lower down my expectation. every company has it pros and cons.

went thru another session with colleagues. she's good i would say. i think she can make it better with my ex company with the never say attitude. good girl.

it is 6pm now there's a christmas party where everyone will get a present on the day. i got myself a starbuck mug from the team. felt nice to have a present. the guys are enjoying themselve with all the cakes and cookies prepared by shatinee and callyn. this is all i need if i got it from ibm and a good and patient mentor but it nv happened.

pack dinner for wife and myself. reluctant to go out for a drink with kam seng as i think age is catching up and kind of need more sleep. but still ended up drinking with william and gang. i think they are true friend in terms of drinking only. however, i feel glad he called me up from drinks and i appreciated it so much.

then ? next day await lor..goodnight..

Day 10

2011-12-14T22:13:00.000-08:00

Day 10 14/12/11

Got off from home a bit late. reached office just in time. Callyn is a good friend and colleague as well. she make sure that i am well settle in my current employment.

went thru another session with my boss. she is quite patient and briefed me again on what i should do. thru the session. in fact yesterday we did go thru the sales incentives, it make me kind of regret leaving ibm because as of now only IBM would be able to offer those kind of comm payout where no other industry i know of can offered. anyhow , i was thinking if my ex boss would have given me the same guide during my time in ibm and i would have stay on to learn and make my money in a bigger organization. However, these are in the past and i will have to stay put with this for the moment. to be honest, i was quite worried if i can make it in tnt during my stay. nevertheless , i will keep my option open and to learn as much as possible rather than think of something which doesnt benefit me .

went out with sandy, joanne and callyn for lunch. even if they are like auntie talking and talking. i find them quite friendly and i will have to live with it and appreciate more of them.

it was just after lunch. spend my time going thru the customers which i want to conquer from my old list. got some details on how to use current system. i felt now i have to sell using what it have which consider no comparable to the old company that i used to work for. nevertheless, not really that i regretted leaving IBM or the yellow ones, have to work harder and look for something better from day to day.
have to start equip myself with better knowledge . hope lighting strike twice for me. let's hope.

parents prepared steamboat for dinner. very nice dinner not until a call from dubai messed it all up. apa lagi, went to arguement and that's it lor..need me to say more. before i went to bed, wife was telling me that she dont find it nice to have throw my chopstick and i find it too. im sorry but i think is all forgotten and i should be more understanding.

hope to learn and time is not with them so have to be more patient with my father.

another day passed.

Day 9

2011-12-13T20:21:00.000-08:00

Day 9 13/12/11

today first day of reporting to TNT. Kind of furnee. Arrived to new office at 830. waitinng at the lobby for HR to attend to me. Going thru all the minor stuff and i was thinking is not really matter to me any way.

New boss bought me lunch together with bunch of new colleagues which i dont think i will have it in IBM but IBM do have nice colleagues around.

IT does come into my mind and hell why am i am doing in this new company. what have i done? anyway , i should concentrate more on my current job rather to think i am bigger than the company. A nice boss , which is softer compare to my few ex bosses. Will try to learn from her as much as possible. Did told my wife that she is soft and was told why cant i tahan my previous boss. yeah man...is not always that fair most of the time.

Left office around 6pm and it took me near to 1 hr and 15 minutes to get home for a short 15 km drive. Have to get used to the traffic for the time being till i become the taiko soon. hahaha.

got home to my wife and sister for dinner. prepared for next day. let's hope it can be better from day to day.

pray hard and check out.

Day 8

2011-12-12T23:40:00.000-08:00

Day 8 12/12/12

Wake up on a holiday Monday. Nothing special as I'm unemployed for the moment cause only tomorrow I will start work with TNT.

Went to segambut but for breakfast and to do what my wife want me to do. Open acct and etc.

Stay at home the whole day and just waiting for dinner with parents in law. Nothing special and ended the day quite normal. Was a bit upset when I saw them going out together at pavilion. I was wondering why didn't they give me a ring to join them ? Maybe they wouldn't want to disturb my day with wife but at least if they txt me I would have feel better. Anyway, is just a small stuff. Who need friend when u r successful. But. Wasn't successful yet but I just thought why can a person own money for so long and didn't bother to repay u for so long?

Got into a small arguement with wife. Small matter. Ask her to get nail clipper but I just don't like Her way of replying to me. Anyway , should have control my temper better and give more patient.

Did mbb come into my mind today? Didn't thought so but it does linger in my mind would it be any difference to what happen today if I'm with mbb. ? Should they still call me up for drinks? An answer I will never and get to know.

Well, I'm getting ready for tomorrow with TNT. Just anticipating what to expect with new job but old way of doing. Just hope for the best.

Gambate!

Goodnight.

Day 7

2011-12-12T07:43:00.001-08:00

Day 7

Day 7 12/12/12

Wake up on a holiday Monday. Nothing special as I'm unemployed for the moment cause only tomorrow I will start work with TNT.

Went to segambut but for breakfast and to do what my wife want me to do. Open acct and etc.
Day 7 12/12/11
Stay at home the whole day and just waiting for dinner with parents in law. Nothing special and ended the day quite normal. Was a bit upset when I saw them going out together at pavilion. I was wondering why didn't they give me a ring to join them ? Maybe they wouldn't want to disturb my day with wife but at least if they txt me I would have feel better. Anyway, is just a small stuff. Who need friend when u r successful. But. Wasn't successful yet but I just thought why can a person own money for so long and didn't bother to repay u for so long?

Got into a small arguement with wife. Small matter. Ask her to get nail clipper but I just don't like Her way of replying to me. Anyway , should have control my temper better and give more patient.

Did mbb come into my mind today? Didn't thought so but it does linger in my mind would it be any difference to what happen today if I'm with mbb. ? Should they still call me up for drinks? An answer I will never and get to know.

Well, I'm getting ready for tomorrow with TNT. Just anticipating what to expect with new job but old way of doing. Just hope for the best.

Gambate!

Goodnight.

Day 6

2011-12-11T22:54:00.000-08:00

Day 6 : 11/12/12

Good morning and me and wife went to breakfast at the hainanese restaurant. It was a bad breakfast. The Hokkien mee is terrible and i think is not clean and both of us had tummy ache.

In order to try out our oven , we went to BIG to get all the necessary fort the cupcakes.

We try the oven and we make our first cup cakes. Not too bad I would say and I think both of us enjoy the process for making the cupcakes.

We had a good laugh on how to spend the toto jackpot this and that. Sunday routine , went over to MIL place fr dinner. She cook a lot for us but I think is for me. All dishes is with pork. My god. I'm getting fat from it. Could sit straight and lay down in sofa after dinner. That's a good dinner.

Took wife to cold storage to get the shiffon cake utensil but couldn't get it and we ended doing marble cake instead of shiffon cake. Not too success and I don't think she got what it takes to become good in baking cakes. Nevertheless, we will not stop here and since. We got the over, we will name as much as possible. Next maybe we try to grill some nice meal.

Is late at night and we went to bed. Nothing special and just another normal day.

Day 5

2011-12-10T22:46:00.000-08:00

Day 5 : 10/12/12

Wake up in the morning. Promised wife to get her the oven. Went to jalan imbi for lunch and searching high and low for her over at pandan jaya, cheras. However , ended up at plaza damas for her oven. Got a slow cooker as well.

Nothing much to write for this day.

Dropped wife at publika. She meeting her friend for dinner and I proceed to my gathering with Jfc. Celebrating her birthday with dinner at delaying. Shock to find the place actually a hawker centre and the furnace part is to booked 20 pax for a hawker centre. Lol

Nevertheless , we waited quite some time for the food. Is all fish dishes and it took quite some time for us. Is almost 3 hrs for them to served everything. Last dish was special with ice cream , fruits and fried fish. Second round at Scott garden. Jfc seem don't want to go home and we went to Scott garden to celebrate. Drank till 2am and I proceed home to sleep.

Next day again and nothing much.

Day 4

2011-12-09T01:21:00.000-08:00

Day 4 : 9/12/12

Today is my last working day with IBM. Just another normal day. Preparing all the stuff to be handover hand to IBM. Wilson called me up for lunch. Had Nasi Kandar. He shared his love situation and I Sort of advising him don't end up like me. If I would have the chance again , will I do the same thing again and go with mbb. Or shud I say histor repeat itself.

Handover all my stuff back to IBM. Send out the farewell note and did the exit interview.

Some good friend did a mini farewell for me. Jing , Cindy, Matthew , and Wilson. We had some drink at Dave's. Those are really good friend and I thought they are really happy for me. Well, let's just hope that I made a good decision.

Me n wife went to pot and bone for dinner. William called me up for farewell drink. That's nice. Dinner was not too bad in fact very filling. Yum yum. After dinner went back and give William a call where to meet. Was in fact a bit tired to drink especially just two of us. So decided to meet up with him and had some good chat. He's a nice guy. Bought me drink. Told me that Elliot will be celebrating her birthday. First thing that come to my mind., hoping that mbb to be safe , updated fb status asking her to drive safe if she's going over to celebrate with her. Hoping she will get the message. Anyhow. Thanks William for spending me some drink and take the time to drink and celebrate mini farewell. Will catch up with him soon.

Time to sleep again. Getting ready for tomorrow blogging. Good night.

Day 3

2011-12-08T22:51:00.000-08:00

Day 3 : 8/12/12

Woke up late in the morning as i went to bed quite late in the late because of staying up late to book 10c ticket from Airasia. Managed to get Phuket and Singapore. Wonder if i will be able to make it for next year trip. Just keep my figure cross.

Went over to publika for You Tiau and coffee. Spend some time in Old town for a nice cooling ice white coffee and updating my blog.

Nothing much happened today and was kind of boring.

On and of still thinking of MBB. stupid shit. hahaha.

me and wife and sister went to Jalan ipoh for famous prawn noodle. Lots of celebrities tried it before and i find it not bad. took chay kuey tiaw as well. Sister was a dumb arse and perhaps it just purely her for being like that. Should have told her old but choose not to. Nvm, she will learn from day to day.

Late night, was quite upset with tiu nia seng. pure in disrespect. But we are friend , never mind that. small matter.

I think I should blog every night before i went to bed cause it tough thinking back to what i have did for the previous night. Therefore. every night before i go to bed .

signing off.

Day 2

2011-12-07T23:00:00.000-08:00

Day 2 : 7/12/11

Another normal day. Fetch my wife to work and counting my leftover working days in IBM. Is a pity I couldn't make it last longer which I would have I could do it. Text my future boss of TNT that I will be joining them a week earlier and lets hope it will bring me some good career advancement.

My nice colleague , salmah bought me a farewell lunch at good evening bangkok. A nice lady to be honest. We shared some word for each other but to her still is my boss 's fault that my stay at IBM is premature. Nevertheless , I didn't put the blame on her but it can be better managed I would thought.

I went straight home after lunch. Nothing to do but just facebooking and thinking what to do next. On and off , I thought of mbb. Posted some thing on fb hoping she will see it but I doubt so. Those are really my sincere thought but I'm married. There's nothing I can do but to her , there's always a choice and she thought I couldn't live without a women next to me for 3 months. She must have been hurt so much. Is all my fault. I should have resolved better like a true man. It reflect a weak character in a person. Maybe or I should have stop thinking the impossible. Well, maybe time will heal everything but is already been yrs. what is so special about her till today I couldn't let it go. I wonder why

Still posting my thought in fb hoping she one day she will understand my decision. Seriously, when I decide to let her go , I wanted to stay single cause I couldnt face both of them. But ended up making a decision unconsciously. And I'm married today.

Waited for my wife for dinner and we went to publika for dinner with Felicia. Not a very good dinner and I was looking at the price and not really because of the price I didn't order but just bread for dinner. The food is not worth to eat at all. Salty. Have to entertain my friend.

Before 12am, had an argument with my wife over the melbourne trip. I was thinking can't she keep one step at a time. But, I should be understanding enough. I will try not to be meant to her. I do love her and care for her. I will make a point to bring her to Australia for holiday again. My style, impromptu vacation. We go and we go. Managed she will understand some day.

Waited till 12am to book for 10c airasia ticket. Managed to get Phuket and Singapore. Wanted to get bike but worried that we couldn't make it just in case my wife deliver our first baby. Singapore was purely for my wife as she never been to sentosa. Make an effort to book and pay in advanced. Siam reap flowed into my thoughts. I suppose to go to this place with her but we didn't make it. It would be a good trip if we managed to go together. Hahaha. Even I suppose to go Penang with her but if I can remember clearly , it was because of Julian's birthday and perhaps some money issue that I decided not to go. Anyway, that's in the past. Went to bed around 3am.

Another days bemoans. Good luck.

Day 1

2011-12-06T18:56:00.000-08:00

Day 1 : 6/12/2011

It has been a while for me to log into my blog to pen down anything. I kinda furnee when i look back into the previous post i posted. :) some memories huh?

I will make an effort to write something a day to keep me remembering what i have done everyday.

Today , woke up as early as 830 am. I texted MBB to say sorry and of course, there will be always no replied from her. JFC called me bout whether did i sent her Christmas flowers for Christmas. Obviously i did not but kinda strange and is only between me and her on the flower conversation in Facebook. I bet someone is looking behind her. May she find a good man to settle down with.

Had lunch with JFC today at pavilion, Madam Kwan. Had curry laksa and coffee at Starbucks. Had a good talk with her and the conversation is to tell her about what did i do last night. I shouldn't have went to Surian. It make matter from bad to worst. I am married and i did make a choice. Went to mercato with JFC, I couldn't believe JFC does cook her own meal. She bought chicken, eggs and prawn for dinner. I bet is kinda bored to eat out everyday especially when u live out yourself. How many times can a friend eat dinner with her? I think she need to get attached soon .

Went to car workshop, nothing wrong with the brake and was a bit worried if I have to spend more on the car but still need to send it for checking on the wiring. Went home.

It took me a while to decide on whether to text her. Yeah , did text her on how sorry I am to mess it again. served me right ya.

Nothing special and wife came home at 10pm and we went to bed as early as 11pm.

The next day await for me.

20.01.10 Midnight

2010-01-19T08:16:00.000-08:00

haiz..wat to write. not easy to write down ur feeling in a blog...

just had an arguement with almost everyone in the house. whose at fault? it all started bekoz of someone that is so far away holding my little nephew i have. wat to do. i think sincerely i have done my best to made everyone pleased. but nv i thought ppl still say that i have no done enuf and giving my brother a hard time for this issue of addressing. what shud i do. give me some sign. i dunno.drinking some johnnie will not help at all but help to bed much faster than usual..

haiz..dunno wat to say but just of that one day time will eventually tell the story.

i think 2 pax of whiskies is done for the lonely nite like this.

Monday midnight 18.01.10

2010-01-17T08:17:00.000-08:00

I felt kinda down and very much demotivated now. Was it all because of my character or was it because expectation is high or just pure complacent. How i wish i get to know the answer.

I will be waking up tomolo at 7.45. most probably the same routine , waking up, get dress and maybe cereal b4 heading to work. Emails + setting appointments if that happen. or else will be heading down to kl for makan as introduce by ah xien.

i am really trouble with all this. i find it hard to relax even if i do nothing till now. i need a new life and a new challenge and hopefully the challenge will come and i rise to it.

Sour

2008-04-07T23:15:00.001-07:00

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remaind unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you