20.01.10 Midnight

haiz..wat to write. not easy to write down ur feeling in a blog...

just had an arguement with almost everyone in the house. whose at fault? it all started bekoz of someone that is so far away holding my little nephew i have. wat to do. i think sincerely i have done my best to made everyone pleased. but nv i thought ppl still say that i have no done enuf and giving my brother a hard time for this issue of addressing. what shud i do. give me some sign. i dunno.drinking some johnnie will not help at all but help to bed much faster than usual..

haiz..dunno wat to say but just of that one day time will eventually tell the story.

i think 2 pax of whiskies is done for the lonely nite like this.

Monday midnight 18.01.10

I felt kinda down and very much demotivated now. Was it all because of my character or was it because expectation is high or just pure complacent. How i wish i get to know the answer.

I will be waking up tomolo at 7.45. most probably the same routine , waking up, get dress and maybe cereal b4 heading to work. Emails + setting appointments if that happen. or else will be heading down to kl for makan as introduce by ah xien.

i am really trouble with all this. i find it hard to relax even if i do nothing till now. i need a new life and a new challenge and hopefully the challenge will come and i rise to it.